~Zoe N~

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Writer, Poet, and I want to be a neuropsychologist

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torn soul and broken mind: a collection of short poems. (Footnotes)

November 21, 2020

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12
i. 
day after day, hiding under the
waves that barely cover us,
from prying eyes,
that look for something
to reveal to the world,
something that will bring us down
from our towers of gold.

ii.
tricking our minds into believing
that once again, we are happy.
twisting and shaping our souls
like wax, into different shapes,
and different forms. 
​frantically searching for something
that is not there.
crying into the darkness,
but there is no one there,
no one listening.

iii.
distractions, of temporary ecstasy.
the people coming running to us,
looking for a share of that temporary joy.
but It's gone too soon, there is nothing left,
nothing left at all. 
they turn away, looking for that joy,
looking for a reason to stay but there is no reason!
why should they stay if there is no joy,
why should they stay if we only push them away and then
beg for them to stay, for them to come home.
but they leave, not once thinking about how we will live,
not once thinking about how we are just waiting for this opportunity to burst,
how if they stay we would be freed from these ropes.
but they don't consider it.
they leave us trapped in our own minds,
trapped in our thoughts,
that poison our whole-beings.
We cannot run anymore,
we cannot hide.
What is left in life, 
to live for.
Who is left?

iv.
The words are blurry on the pages in front of us,
life is just a blurry page of stories,
of photographs, of memories,
we live in the neverending world of the stories
of the people who have lived and died,
the people who have contributed their own stories
to that blurry page that I can never read. 
we spend our time analyzing those stories over and over again,
and while that is happening we become stories,
we become those dusty photographs that are stored in the attics of old houses.
We become the memories passed down generation by generation.
We will all become stories, we will all add to that blurry page,
we will all become only a memory, and then not even that anymore.






 
I know there are a lot of mistakes and lines in here that don't sound quite right. I know that this could use a lot, I mean a lot of improvement but for now at least, I want to keep it like this, because when I wrote this, I didn't even think about what I was writing, so in other words, these poems are how I feel right now, I wrote without thinking about what I was saying, I just wrote and as some people say: bled my feelings on to the paper haha. I really wanted to do a piece like that so here we go :) 

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8 Comments
  • midnight.summerrose

    I love this!! It's amazing!! Wow! You're so talented! :)


    16 days ago
  • FantasyOtter12

    Re: I like fantasy, i like otters, and I like the number 12. :)


    16 days ago
  • mirkat

    re: ofc. <3


    16 days ago
  • mirkat

    woah. the last one struck me.... the imagery and the emotion is amazing and i love hoe wild and beautiful and raw this is. i love when you can just let your thoughts go and just write!! great job! <3<3<3


    16 days ago
  • R.j.Elsewhere

    iii really struck me. Your writing is really soulful.


    18 days ago
  • CrazyNinjaKid

    This is so emotional and I really love your word choice :)
    Incredible vocab always improves any piece of writing - you've nailed this!


    18 days ago
  • journal.scribbles

    Wow these are all amazing! Number three was my favorite. I'm glad you were able to use writing as a release for your feelings (that probably doesn't make much sense XD) Beautiful piece!


    18 days ago
  • acrosstheuniverse28

    These are all so wonderful and heartfelt, but I think the last one is my favorite! Honestly, sometimes simply writing what's on your mind without thinking works much better than planning things out and trying to make it sound or look good. As long as it comes from the heart (which this definitely does!), than it's good writing in my book ;)


    18 days ago