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"i am out with lanterns, looking for myself" - ED
seventeen year old poet

Message to Readers

i miss my grandmother

the girl that i should be//the girl that i am

July 25, 2021

she crouches on the floor wearing mud encrusted flip flops
there is a red shawl wrapped tightly around her waist
it holds her brick phone which has run out of battery
it holds her aching back like pva glue wrapping around jigsaw pieces

she reminds herself that she is no one
just a village girl who cuts grass for the cow
her mother milks it and loves it
her father carries the milk on a motorcycle into town

this world may be alien to you
but it is almost home to me
but it nearly happened to me
but it also never did
and for that i am grateful

she isn't scared of snakes winding up her legs
her skin is slightly cracked and is darker than mine
suncream is too expensive and the village shops only sell packet noodles

she isn't afraid of cows or spiders or the dark
they stomp and crawl and engulf her life
they are a crucial part of her life
they are alien to me

so many sources of brutality
of nature and of rich cultural love
surround her
like her red shawl which is split at the seams

her grandmother owns the other half
my grandmother, who cries to me on the phone
my grandmother, who i hope is hanging on
like crimson threads swaying in the wind
oblivious to snakes and cows and spiders and the dark


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  • July 25, 2021 - 2:43pm (Now Viewing)

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  • The_Sunrise_Queen

    wow... your language in this is beautiful. You completely deserved this - congratulations!

    5 months ago
  • JapneetK

    This is amazing! Every word just captures me into something, you've used your writing to create a masterpiece!
    I'm sure your grandmother would love to hear that you were featured! Congratulations!

    5 months ago
  • Jesica Cojocea

    Aww. So sorry to hear that your so far apart. It'll be okay tho, I know it will. :)
    Also, congrats.

    6 months ago
  • Anne Blackwood

    Re: <3<3<3

    6 months ago
  • happygiggles

    This is mesmerizing! You use imagery so well and vividly paint a picture!

    6 months ago
  • Anne Blackwood

    This is amazing! Congrats on being featured!

    6 months ago
  • tigerlily4

    I'm so sorry that you have to be away from your grandmother. There will be a happy ending, I promise!

    6 months ago
  • Zirong

    Oh my this took my breath away. Congrats!!!

    6 months ago
  • HighEntropy

    this is beautiful... the way you've captured the image is incredible!

    6 months ago
  • Writing4Life

    Oh my goodness, incredible! Wow! This piece is so sad and beautiful all at the same time. Wonderful job, and congrats!

    6 months ago
  • HeyThereRose


    6 months ago
  • NewPoet

    This is such a beautiful piece!! You described everything so well and put a clear picture in my mind! I’m sorry about your grandmother<3 <3

    6 months ago
  • _Peanut_

    Congrats, what a beautiful and deserving piece :)

    6 months ago
  • Stone of Jade

    such beautiful descriptions. congrats!! this def deserves a feature <3

    6 months ago
  • SunV

    Wonderful work, I'm so glad it was chosen for Wednesday Words!!! Like the comments below, your imagery is amazing, and there's so much description, I love it so much

    6 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    Woah, congrats on Wednesday words!! This piece is beautiful, I'm glad it got recognized because it deserves to be! The detail and the imagery is breathtaking.

    6 months ago
  • HeyThereRose

    Ahhh okay this is so so amazing
    The carrying through of imagery like the red shawl and snakes and cows is insane
    And it all weaves together so well and just feels like transportative which apparently isn't a word but oh well
    This is really really good bro ahhh
    Also! I love the new pfp so much!!!

    6 months ago
  • ava_grace

    I miss my grandmother too. <3 <3 <3

    6 months ago