Anne Blackwood

United States

16
Christian
Poet
Singer
Theatre kid
Twin
Disabled (chronically ill)
Suspected autistic
ADHD
Highly Sensitive Person
XXFJ, Melancholic-Sanguine, ambivert

Joined 1/16/20

Message from Writer

Mom to FantasyOtter12, lochnessie, mindfruit, Rohan's Defender, (unofficially) rat in a hat, & all
Sis to happy butterfly
birthdaycandles & happygiggles are my apple juice Jesus sisters
(Kindness Krusader: Blueberry cotton candy)

My profile picture is my "personal crest" I designed and commissioned.

"you can't wait until life isn't hard anymore before you decide to be happy"
~ Nightbirde

"my thoughts cry in verse"
~ traitor.o.us (poem) by Anne Blackwood

"i streak the atmosphere with ink."
~ graffiti-streaked poetry (poem) by Paisley Blue

Anxiety must-reads:
https://bit.ly/2YUyome
https://bit.ly/2TsNYSa
And pray. That's the only reason I'm free now.

revelations by his willing victim

August 1, 2021

FREE WRITING

20

and i swear i'm over what he did to me,
but
searching for goodness
that he didn't even pretend
he had
is a sick thing for me to have done to myself.

maybe he's a master manipulator,
(more than i already know he is)
and my empathy
was all part of his twisted plan.

or perhaps he merely saw a victim
and sat back
while i performed my own sacrifice
without his hands
having to control a thing.
Yo I promise I don't think about Red (toxic ex-friend) like at all anymore. But I was listening to Mr. Perfectly Fine by Taylor Swift and it hit me how easy I made it for him to hurt me. Like obviously he's cruel and manipulative and it's not my fault (right??), but dang. He didn't even have to work hard, did he? Blech.

Title is inspired by a line in the song "Just Give Me A Reason" by P!nk.

July 31, 2021

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14 Comments
  • A. Penderwick

    Gosh, this is amazing. It’s definitely not your fault, and this person seems really toxic.
    Re: eeee, thank you so much!!!!


    about 2 months ago
  • ~wildflower~

    Oof, those last three lines hit hard.
    Re: yeah, I think I remember discovering (very excitedly) a while ago that you liked MHN as well. I find that her writing (and artwork) is just so uplifting and validating and calming. And that quote is literally my favourite quote ever - it means a lot to me. Anyways, hope you’re having a good day! <3


    about 2 months ago
  • Writing4Life

    Re: No problem! Awhhhh you're too sweet!


    about 2 months ago
  • Tachi

    re:It was literally true.
    You can have some of my sleep-


    about 2 months ago
  • Kate (Kit-Kat Sully) {Child of God}

    re: Ok, That's cool! Do you like to paint or anything like that? I know you did your profile image, but I couldn't remember if you've posted anything in the Light drawing group or anything. I'm painting rn. It's my first time painting a person--it's so difficult! XD


    about 2 months ago
  • books4life

    i legit love everything you write. you are so talented! hope you have a great day! :) and the title is *chef kiss*


    about 2 months ago
  • FantasyOtter12

    Re: Thanks for the comment! I was thinking hes somewhere on earth, did you see a specific place you think i could include that?


    about 2 months ago
  • jellybean568

    Re: Haha, I wish. But thank you!


    about 2 months ago
  • Writing4Life

    Re: All good <333


    about 2 months ago
  • Writing4Life

    Re: Awww thanks hun <333 Dw, people will always be mean, but it's how you let their words affect you is what matters. Thank you <3
    (ah goodness, I'm so sorry you had such a toxic relationship....*hugs*)


    about 2 months ago
  • happygiggles

    gorgeous!


    about 2 months ago
  • Kate (Kit-Kat Sully) {Child of God}

    RE: Good. That's cool, have fun! I've been well. Busy with Light. We have a new member on our team now--Thomas. Idk if you've met him yet, but he's been really encouraging and he's been able to help us out with all the techy stuff on Light. I'm finishing my novel "28th Street", I should have it finished in the next day or so. Then I'll begin the next one in that series. What've you been writing lately? Any novels? Or is that not your forte?


    about 2 months ago
  • Kate (Kit-Kat Sully) {Child of God}

    RE: Your welcome! How've you been doing?


    about 2 months ago
  • spidygurl

    Woah, I really like this specially "and my empathy, was all part of his twisted plan."
    Great work!
    Also, you like Taylor Swift? I am obsessed with her song Mr.Perfectly Fine, it's so...brutal and beautiful!
    And yeah. it's not your fault..I can totally relate to what you said. Some people are just so deceitful and convincing..it's so easy to fall for their lies. Hope you're doing good, have a nice week!


    about 2 months ago